An apology.

I ran out of rented movies and the weather is telling me to stay inside, so I flipped on the TV in hopes to find something to watch this afternoon. There’s slim pickins on TWC’s On Demand (I miss you, Comcast!) but there was something under the Sundance Channel that caught my eye. Read more »

The Truth.

I usually don’t post lyrics unless they are mine, but this one answers a lot of the questions that have been looming on my mind… my responsibilities as a follower of Christ as it pertains to influencing others in their relationship with the Lord. Or lack of. I am flawed, so “for the sake of the world I thank the Lord that the truth’s not contingent on me.”

“The Truth” - Caedmon’s Call/Derek Webb

I’ve been putting on and putting off too many people
And I’m getting old to live like an injured man
Ailment and unfilled prescription like the nose on my face
Like a broken boat safety raft and a love for the water
And I just can’t decide to sink or swim it’s me or them
Should I save myself or go back for the others because

Maybe there’s no gray and I was wrong to tell ‘em so
And maybe all that I’ve to do was done a long time ago

‘Cause there was life before my life
There was provision before my need
There was redemption before my sin
For the sake of the world I thank the Lord
That the truth’s not contingent on me

I’ve been dressing up and dressing down for too many people
And I’m a little young to live like a troubled boy, a troubled soul
A fish out of water, ’cause we’re all just the same
We’re all just as good and just as bad and just as distracted
By the corners of our eyes as our fathers were and theirs before
And all those before them and still I glance around

And with the way I stare you’d think I’d seen through a two-by-four
And with the way I walk you’d think I’d never seen grace before

But I’ve been putting up and putting down too many things
That I know nothing about but I’m jealous of
Holding pride as tight as I can like she was my only daughter

For one second?

I wonder if Jesus ever thought for even one brief second that we were all ungrateful and didn’t deserve any mercy, grace, forgiveness, or redemption.

Maybe it’s because I know the answer that I feel that there is this unattainable gap, this unreachable goal as a follower of Christ which, too often, discourages and disappoints me.